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I am afraid

I am afraid to look into your eyes,
Because it feels like home, that I would never have.
I am afraid to reciprocate the long stare,
Because once I am drawn in, I will drown forever.
I am afraid to I hug you long,
Because I wouldn't able to say goodbye properly if I cry.
I am afraid when you talk about love,
Because to you its different, to me its different.
I am afraid if I accidentally touch you,
Because I may not know my limit, and its monstrous to see.
I am afraid when you talk about future life,
Because I already know, for you its happy, for me its not.
I am afraid to say I love you,
Because I mean it real, and you still refuse to understand.

Of all those reasons I am afraid about you, I still want to continue this love. Its okay if you don’t understand now. Its okay if you refuse this love. I still, want to be near. My love doesn’t have to be replied, whether you know or not know how much I love you, I still love you the same. I don’t want to give you this burden, its too heavy. But I wish you to know, how precious you are to someone and you deserve the world. If I could give you the world, I would. Just please, let me be near. Let me show you my love, I don’t expect anything in return. Just be happy and do what you want in life, I’ll be there when you need me. I’ll be there I promise.



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