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Holding On

"I'm tired lately. I went to bed early. But I hardly sleep right away. Before I could finally in the semi-conscious state, my thought goes to you.

What are you doing right now?
Are you still mad at me?
Why aren't we talking anymore?

Then all of the beautiful things we did together screening inside my mind. You were so pretty. My heart pounds faster. I was a lucky man. I smile like an idiot.

And then suddenly...

Our last conversation came to thought. You weren't that happy with me. You were always busy. You never miss me. You barely wanted to see me. And I finally burst into tears.

I am the same Joshy, but why suddenly everything I did was wrong and annoying in your eyes? Why do I feel as if, you fell out of love with me?

After being so puzzled up, so caught up in my own emotions. I began to lose my consciousness. I began to fall asleep. Maybe because of the tears. But maybe also because of me holding on to those happy times. I'm in love with your smile, still."

-Tired Joshy

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