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The act of hoping to see you again; I miss you

What really called me to write about my thoughts about this was when I who was in midst of workloads which never seem to weigh down, unconsciously wrote "I miss You" in a piece of paper. I sort of, didn't realize about it, until my colleague make fun of me as soon as she spotted the tiny little phrase.

I really thought I was busy enough, to not think about it. But I guess, my thought of you managed to slip in anyway.

Lately what I do is working. Morning until night, sunrise to sunset, sunshine til rain, wake up worrying about datelines and go back to sleep. But I never really hate my situation. I feel like I'm finding what I can do best at. And of course, to become a better person, it was never promised to be easy. I had to make sacrifices.

I really wanna meet you. I know it will come the day when the feelings are mutual, and with God's Mercy, I might be lucky enough to have a great day with you. And I swear I will take dozens of selfies with you. Its a vengeance ;)

For the moment, even though its hard, even though its a little bit sad, and even if its tiring, HIMNAE (have strength) ! God must have better plans for us mates. God makes the feeling stronger by have me apart from you.

Tonight I can't see the moon. I wonder if its hiding from you too. It rained here just now. I hope it will rain there as well. So that you'll sleep well. So that you'll put a better fight for tomorrow.

May God bless you. And may God reach my thoughts of you, in the sweetest  of a dream.

Song on repeat: Memori Tercipta by the beautiful Shila Amzah


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