When it comes to love, your kind of religion would not understand. But my kind of religion would. We share the same religion, why is it our way of life is different? I told you, that I liked you. I told you that I cared about you more than you think I do. You said, I should not lead this kind of life, that I will not be blessed. But you never said that you hate me, for liking you. I did not get the wrong idea, it was not my intention to pursue this feeling in the beginning, I truly understand that what I want, is not what you want. But aren't you being too cruel? Like, cutting ties with me? Somehow, I felt like I judged you wrong. I expected more from you. I thought that, you were gonna be more kind in handling me. I felt like, I have been loving the wrong person this whole time. And then, I realized that I actually loved someone else. They have the same face as you, but it was not you. I suddenly come to terms that, I have been loving the version of you, that I my s
I always see myself as a calm and collected in whatever situation I was thrown into. As in, I will always try to think first and analyse the situation first before jumping into conclusions, or, I will play the closest scenarios that could happen if I were to do that, or I were to do this. I basically will not just follow my heart, my brain and logical thinking will lead most of all. So that, it will bring less damage to other people around me, other people finances, other people feelings, and me myself, literally in that sequence. So it really disturbs me that when it comes to you, I am completely in reverse stance. As like, my heart became a dictator in making decisions, even though the brain constantly giving warnings of what could possibly happen, which usually unfavourable, the heart still go and do the way it wants. When it comes to you, it feels like everything I do has completely different purpose, different attachment, different expectation and even brings out differen