Words unspoken.

I am afraid to look into your eyes, Because it feels like home, that I would never have. I am afraid to reciprocate the long stare, Because once I am drawn in, I will drown forever. I am afraid to I hug you long, Because I wouldn't able to say goodbye properly if I cry. I am afraid when you talk about love, Because to you its different, to me its different. I am afraid if I accidentally touch you, Because I may not know my limit, and its monstrous to see. I am afraid when you talk about future life, Because I already know, for you its happy, for me its not. I am afraid to say I love you, Because I mean it real, and you still refuse to understand. Of all those reasons I am afraid about you, I still want to continue this love. Its okay if you don’t understand now. Its okay if you refuse this love. I still, want to be near. My love doesn’t have to be replied, whether you know or not know how much I love you, I still love you the same. I don’t want to give...

So last two months I have been doing a repeating fun adventure, which now I decided to make it as a monthly event! FOOD HUNT. So yeah in August 2017 I went to Mr. Dalkagbi in Setia City Mall, but I did not take any photo of my lunch. If I were to rate it, perhaps 6.5/10? It was a nice experience. So for September 2017, On my dentist appointment weekend I, last minute searched a place where I could eat lunch. Little did I know about a place named Gangnam Station. It is located in Shah Alam Seksyen 13 in Laman Seri Business Park. The place is near Metia Residence and Giant Shah Alam. Well, I just Waze the place, super convenient. The business park has parking fee, so I was there about 50 minutes, the fee was RM1. I was alone with growling stomach so I ordered quite number of dishes, for a solo ranger. Below were what I ate and menus I managed to capture. Overall, it was definitely a good experience. The place wasn't that fancy, but it feels comfortable like eating at  local ...

Why only my love that is hard? As if my road of lively doesn't exist You get away with it so easily As if you never really try This huge burden, am I the only one who cry? My love is pure, my love is you After all of those I love yous, you chose to give in too As if you weren't my destiny Why do I have to agree that my love is untrue? When my whole world is you When I only want you We were born to live a life full of hurdles I want to face it all I want to give it all But of all the kinds, my love is the biggest wall? If I were to climb over, it seems more misery than victory, no! Why do I have to agree that my love is untrue? As if you weren't my destiny You are my whole world, to live without you Is to live without love Can you hear me? How can I live without love? When love is the real me.

''Bingggg bingggg binggg" alarm o'clock goes off. It was 8 p.m. and now Joshy's heading back to the dorm. Having full day with classes, group meeting and stuff was really exhausting, Joshy felt like his social life was over. Walking bit tipsy and a bit like zombie, Joshy passed the cafeteria and suddenly he stopped walking. He saw Jenny and Michael together eating dinner. They seemed happy and all giggled. "I guess it's true, what the rumor said. They are dating." He murmured by himself. It has been 3 weeks since Jenny dated Michael. "I don't understand why does it have to be Michael, I am much better man than that jerk...". Without even realizing it, Joshy clenched his fist so hard that the redness became so obvious. He suddenly remembered a scene in the drama he watched last year, when the second hero had to see the one he loved, loving somebody else, and could not do anything about it. "It is painful..even then I could not sa...

One day you love selflessly Another day you hoped for more It is a never ending journey To love your self more To precious who you really are Because way before you met them You were worthy You were kind You were independent You are you Darling, come back to your senses To love another person Is an incredible thing, yes But it is nothing beyond loving yourself Loving yourself is the greatest love of all Once you are your number one Everything else will come to place You will capable of loving other people, for real Try listen to When You Believe by Whitney Houston and Mariah Carey. 

It was raining that night. It was not that heavy, that night the rain poured romantically. As if it prepared a scene or a background sound of a beautiful memory. Joshy and Jenny went back to their dorm after a batch party. They supposed to leave with other dorm mates, somehow only them both were staying, Shawn and Mary have family plans made on short notice. Joshy and Jenny ran back at the dorm with linked arms. Because there was only one small umbrella. Little did Jenny knew, how Joshy's heart beat so fast as if it would explode any time soon. Being a gentlemen, obviously, Joshy had his half shoulder all wet, so that the cold rain did not bother Jenny's beautiful dress. Finally when they reached the dorm, Jenny invited Joshy to spend a night at her room. It was a festive weekend so most of the student went back to their hometown, and Joshy knew Jenny could be a scaredy cat sometimes so he agreed, shyly. They both dry themself with towel, Joshy changed into a comfortable t-shir...