Words unspoken.

Can we go back to the old times? Back when our goals are the same Our hearts beat so fast To achieve something that others says Too hard to be achieved Can we go back to the old times? When we laugh off mistakes We smile at honesty We hugs like there is no tomorrow Because we are so into the present Can we go back to the old times? When we say sorry if we make our friend angry We feel bad for saying harsh words Because the truth is what we hate is the act We never leave the person behind Us are that important Can't we just be the same as before? When we can just point out problems We say what we think We may involve tears while solving it But we dare enough to face it Right now, To be so careful of what we said So that other people wont get it wrong Too scared to be bold Because the bond might broke Because we live so far apart We talk so less We try to communicate But texting is so not the way mate Misunderstanding always plays its game We need to se...

Days went by so fast, I'm scared sometimes, Of what the future holds, Of what will happen to us, I tried countlessly to ignore, But I'm no angel, To go bright all day, To go fair all hour, My monster comes out sometimes, It actually defending me, From things I thought I shouldn't be defending, Because I tried to become an angel, But I'm no angel, It was plain act of pretentious, To runaway from admitting the truth, From disaster that I myself created, ....... I'm the one who liked you I'm the one who was so in love You don't worry I'm taking responsibility for this feeling I put it in Now I'm putting it out I'm tired to be the good guy I wanna stop liking you I wanna start loving myself

- Too many goals, so many things desired, yet so little time, less in focus and confidence level at the size of an apple.  - Why do we humans, do the bad things, even though we 100% knew and sure that it was wrong to do so.  - Why we humans, tend to only care for ourselves? Selfless is a one strong word, that I don't think I am worthy to even speak about it.  - I saw a weakness of a friend. and I reflect about it for one whole night. I wish I didn't see it. Because I can feel that it changes my perspective of her, somehow, God how I tried to not to. But for one second, I'm glad I stumbled upon it. Because I knew how one bad habit can be monstrous and how it can keep growing; until you do not think what you're doing is not acceptable.  - I always agree that experience is better than any other kind of education. One of the reasons why we respect elders. But I wish they knew, because of the new surroundings, different time, we are not facing the exact same strug...

"I'm tired lately. I went to bed early. But I hardly sleep right away. Before I could finally in the semi-conscious state, my thought goes to you. What are you doing right now? Are you still mad at me? Why aren't we talking anymore? Then all of the beautiful things we did together screening inside my mind. You were so pretty. My heart pounds faster. I was a lucky man. I smile like an idiot. And then suddenly... Our last conversation came to thought. You weren't that happy with me. You were always busy. You never miss me. You barely wanted to see me. And I finally burst into tears. I am the same Joshy , but why suddenly everything I did was wrong and annoying in your eyes? Why do I feel as if, you fell out of love with me? After being so puzzled up, so caught up in my own emotions. I began to lose my consciousness. I began to fall asleep. Maybe because of the tears. But maybe also because of me holding on to those happy times. I'm in love with your smile, st...

What really called me to write about my thoughts about this was when I who was in midst of workloads which never seem to weigh down, unconsciously wrote "I miss You" in a piece of paper. I sort of, didn't realize about it, until my colleague make fun of me as soon as she spotted the tiny little phrase. I really thought I was busy enough, to not think about it. But I guess, my thought of you managed to slip in anyway. Lately what I do is working. Morning until night, sunrise to sunset, sunshine til rain, wake up worrying about datelines and go back to sleep. But I never really hate my situation. I feel like I'm finding what I can do best at. And of course, to become a better person, it was never promised to be easy. I had to make sacrifices. I really wanna meet you. I know it will come the day when the feelings are mutual, and with God's Mercy, I might be lucky enough to have a great day with you. And I swear I will take dozens of selfies with you. Its a vengean...

Hi guys. Growing up and seeing what kind of world I'm living in somewhat keeps me looking back in the past; thinking about who I really was. I gave some thought on What will I do if I were to go back through past while in present's consciousness. And I think... I will want to ask for forgiveness.  I think I was a bad friend, and I guess I'm facing the consequenses now. I remember each and every person that has touched my life and I, who was on terrible state of mind, treated them unfairly. To my good good hearted friends S,A,I,W,N,Z,T,S,Z and S... I am sorry I wasn't in the best state when we were making memories. If I could change the way I acted, I would. -There were times I was making such bad and inappropriate decisions, I'm sorry I let you joined. -There were times I was so in love with the new surrounding, I'm sorry I didn't include you. -There were times I was so confused and felt insecure, I'm sorry I went away just like that. -...